Febuary 10, 2026

I don't remember much, but I reffered to myself as "We". It did feel like we were multiple people, it felt natural. No one said anything of it and still talked to me as if I were one person.

Febuary 8, 2026

We were playing a game, me and a bunch of people. It was a sort of competitive game. We could eliminate each other by killing, so I had a gun. People had medals that you could steal and the one with the most in the end wins. There was also keys that people stole from each other because the keys gave access to locked doors likely with more things behind them.

By this point, wrapped around my right forearm I had two medals and a key in between. I was a bit against the wall, not trapped, when I pointed my gun at the person standing in front of me because they were a threat, but suddenly they appeared as Odasaku (Bungo Stray Dogs) and everything around turned into a white void. I was caught off guard and my hands holding the gun lowered as I mumbled his name in confusion. How is he here? I thought he was dead long ago. Is it really him? I miss him so much. Unfortunately I am snapped out of it when I see the sillouette of the real person who has been appearing to me as Odasaku. I checked my arm and the key was gone. I had been so caught off guard that I couldn't continue, only speaking outloud. "I was tricked."

Febuary 2, 2026

A blue orb from my body, a piece of my soul, was boiling over and melting due to neglect. I was under the impression that losing this piece of my soul would cause me to no longer feel hunger, but I only began to feel an insatiable, much too painful, hunger for meat.

January 27, 2026

I don't remember why but I entered a room where there was a hole in the middle that was being dug up. Ito was in the hole and there was an adult that knew this stuff and she was going to the other room. I think I was pretty much almost out of the door when I heard Ito start coughing and trying to get out of the hole with the ladder so I went to help them get up, then when they were up where there's more air, I tried to call out to the adult for help since she's the one that knows what to do and she didn't even hear the coughing. Later on I was in playing Roblox and I saw Ito again.

We were in a sort of class room -.---. stole something from me. It was something I wasn't going to let happen, especially by him so I went and got it back aggressively. ------.------- tried to tease or something so I threatened to stab him with the scissors I was holding by holding them in a way I could use to stab. I then accidentally damage my laptop screen by trying to close it but I accidentally left my mouse on the keyboard so the pressure imprinted the logo of the mouse onto the screen and also discolored that spot. I was surprisingly breaking down less than other times I accidentally damage my expensive stuff in dreams.

January 26, 2026

Too much irrelevant to what I want to write but we were playing a game of running around a room and shooting each other. We were a bunch of people and it was fun, except for the two times I was on the ground without even actually being out since one time I was out of breath really bad somehow and another time I fell and hit my head so I was laying on the ground for a minute.

The location where this game was happening changed but I eventually found where people were lined up to be taken to the new location to play. When I went to get in line, my friend was there too. I saw the way he looked at me like I'm melting. He said he'll email me later as to why I haven't seen him. I know it was that he was avoiding me. I didn't say much, but insisted to myself I didn't mean to do anything wrong, if I did anything wrong.

January 24, 2026

I accidentally made a mess of something, it was an art piece made up of the stuff made of shapes you can stick on paper or anywhere. I picked it up to take a look at it but the pieces all fell apart around the rooms of the house. Everyone was searching and cleaning the mess, I tried to help too but sometimes I felt people judging me for when I accidentally went the wrong way to return to that room, or when I was accidentally hit by a boy sweeping the floor and I got sad because I kind of thought it was on purpose.

I don't remember what I did, but I helped Columbina with something, I think it was that I found something she lost. Then everything started becoming what you can find around the rooms becomes something to help you in a competition of teams of two reaching their assigned destination first. This is where I helped Columbina actually. Teams weren't formed yet, we just searched for items for now. I saw her and I pointed out to her where there are her Hydro vision(ignore genshin lore) and there was also my own Cryo vision. That was each our only tool we got.

When the teaming up started, I thought no one would want to be with me so it would take a while for me to find someone to tolerate me. Surprisingly, it said I was picked immediately as a teammate, by Columbina. I felt happy as I went to find her, seems like we get along. Our destination to reach was a specific roof and to be under the moonlight. Things were going well since I had previously explored the place and knew how to get there. We got split up a few times and found each other again. We were make progress to reach the roof until we found a computer. It was a powerpoint where each slide was a frame of a video so it was like normally watching the video by quickly going through it. At first it looked normal, I think a man checking up on a sleeping kid, but then there's a big monster that comes up behind them and it tears them apart (Althought we don't see that last part, we just knew.) It scared us out of going to our destination on the roof since that's out in the open where that monster could come be and come attack us so we went a low as we could. We went back down all the ladders and stairs and everything that we went up and went deep indoors.

January 16, 2026

I was sitting with some people in a restaurant. I wanted to go be with the other group from before (which consists of two boys, one dumb and the other also dumb but a bit more intellectually smart, and a girl) so I announced that under my breath and was about to try to get up but the girl in front of me flicked me. It hurt and I reacted outloud. She laughed at me and said about she likes these new kids, they're funnier than the old new kids. Feeling upset already, I get up and went to the other group who was hanging out in some replica type thing of my dreams' version of Battle Royale. I eventually found the girl and I tried to say I came because I want to watch Battle Royale but I messed up my words twice and felt so embarressed but she still looked at me nicely. (The events of before with the group was that she was sitting at a table in a bookstore. She gave me and the dumb kinda smart boy directions for where is a specific version of Battle Royale. I felt embarressed because I was getting the instructions wrong because the boy found it before me and brought it to her. I just then found a different one and looked inside. Inside was cases like pages in a book with physical items from Battle Royale. I felt like it was so cool I went to show and then realized that the one the girl had us look for was the same type of thing, I think the items inside were different though so I was thinking about we could have them together.)

January 7, 2026 (TW: Body Horror I think)

I ran into a room panicking a bit. The room was like the type you'd find in front of an office, with two booths. I was stumbling and falling until I finally could sit down. The woman sitting in front of me said about my stumbling "If I was in your situation, I would too." After a while, Nefer (from Genshin Impact) came and sat down next to me in front of the other woman. I guess I felt comfortable confiding in her so I showed my right hand that I've been holding my palm shut. In my palm, there's a hole. (It looks like the man with the hole where his eyes used to be, no blood. It's a video I think on youtube.) If you look into the hole in my palm, you can see out through the smaller hole at the end. I was distressed and explaining to her that I have this hole in my hand and I don't know what to do to fix it before realizing the hole got a little bigger. She spoke really calmly and suggested I keep my palm open, and it worked. I was already seeing the hole in my hand getting smaller again. It's a bit after, still in that location, that I learn this happened because I accidently touched a spider lily somewhere. I then touch some red "paint" from the spider lily with my finger and my finger started melting a little.