Escape

You probably got the idea by now that my parents neglect and abuse me so I want to move away. I don't have the money for it though. My friend said before we could move in an apartment together at some point but that doesn't look like it's going to happen. I wanted to follow him where he's going to university to by going attending the same university but that's not happening either. I told my dad I don't want to spend my money on a car I want to use it for school but he got mad at me and yelled at me that it's not negotiable. So I want to move to Japan.

First I just always wanted to go visit Japan. A lot of interesting things happen there. I want to move to Japan to get away from my dad because it's too far away for him to follow me. He would've been able to follow me where I first wanted to move since it's just 3 hours away. I know that Japan had issues with strict working so I already know I would not likely be able to get a job there but I'm okay with that. I don't care if I become homeless and die, I already accepted that years ago. At least if I die there, he's not there. I also just thought about how no one knows me there so I won't bother anyone. I want to make sure I don't bother anyone even after I'm dead.

I wanted to go to Tokimeki BinBim but it doesn't exist anymore. I also wanted to go to the roof or emergency stairs of that Omihachiman apartment building but then I realized they probably wouldn't let a random person in so instead I decided the Chuo Line.

I always get angry at least once whenever I do research about Ruru's Suicide Show on a Livestream. People always say it's based on Rorochan. It's not. It's not completely based on Rorochan. It's inspired but not based on. RSSonL is about teenage depression and how it gets ignored by adults. I hate people who will say the song is bad because of it's relation to what happened with Rorochan, as if songs about real situations can only be bad.