Created by: brutal_vap
Rating: ★★★★★
I was struggling to think for my own visual novel until I remembered this game and that I hadn't played it yet, so I played it on impulse.
Right from the beginning, it had that foggy feeling I can't describe. Soggy is one word I always use. The game is very comforting.
I relate to Lilo in one way. It's the way she struggles to make friends because the other kids think she's weird. She even talks about things in a way that confuses other people when it makes complete sense to her.
There's also this scene at the beginning where she explained how she ran out of peanut butter for the fish's sandwich and there was only tuna but she can't give a fish tuna, that would be bad. Lilo is already in a bad mood here and then Mertle calls her crazy. It's makes her mad and she attacks Mertle as a first reaction. Only after she realizes and regrets it.
Afterwards, Lilo sees that the other girls are holding dolls and goes to ask them if they're going to play dolls. When the girls say she doesn't have a doll, Lilo takes out Scrump and explains her to the girls but the girls abandon Lilo. Lilo reacts by throwing Scrump on the ground and leaving, before quickly coming back and hugging Scrump. Later on when Stitch is with Lilo, she sees the girls again and shouts "My friends!" Lilo considers them her friends since she's lonely and there was no one else, until Stitch who would be considered just as weird as her.
I think Lilo is autistic. I also got violent when I was younger when people made me angry and I didn't know how bad that really is. I just knew I would get my electronics taken away and I didn't want that, it didn't process that hitting or pushing was bad. One time a classmate made fun of me and I threw a chair at him. And then I was put in a program for kids with behavioral problems the next year. After that program, I still had to talk to this lady but I don't remember anything about it. I only remember her at all because I was talking about a band I like that no one knows and she liked them too.
Directed by: Sion Sono
Rating: ★★★★☆
A detective is trying to find the cause of a string of suicides.
I watched it by searching everywhere but I couldn't find it. Everywhere on the internet I found this movie, it was replaced with something else. I found it in one site but it kept freezing and became unwatchable after 20 minutes. Then all I had to do was search the internet archive like where someone on reddit told me it would be. I didn't think of that despite how much I use the wayback machine.
My favorite character was Mitsuko. She's cool. Genesis was funny in the way he sent the message to police talking about his delusions of grandeur and wanted to send their adsress for whatever he was thinking he could do, they arrested him immediately. He called himself "Charles Manson of the Information Age."
Because the dead shine all night long.
Created by: Ferry // nopanamaman
Times Played: 1
Rating: ★★★★★
Content warning: Existentialism, me venting about bullies and my delusions
"USSR, 1986. When Ira Grachevskaya goes missing in the closed city of Vorkuta-5, not a soul seems to be concerned – except for the quiet outcast Asya Shubina, that is. Uncover the mystery behind Ira’s disappearance, transmit your radio signal to the universe and learn why a bird flies past the window."
Z.A.T.O. is a very existential game. The protagonist Asya often has thoughts like I've been having. Her mindset is a lot like when I was that age. I saw that a lot with how much she gets made fun of, bullied and tricked because that stuff happened to me all through primary school and I didn't know any better, kept falling for it. I did get mad and sometimes violent but still oblivious to the fact it they were bullying me all up until realizing it in like 11th grade.
When Marina's brother called her delusional, I thought "yeah" because I was also called delusional by my friend. It's wasn't a manipulating thing, we were being bullied by guys from school on motorbikes and I started genuinely believing that I'd get jumped by them if I went outside during school hours alone. I started believing it'd be okay to bring some sort of sharp weapon like a knife or scissors (my thoughts went back to this time when Ira swung a compass at Vadim. Those things are sharp and unsuspecting to carry because I used it for math class.) I genuinely believed the it'd be okay, even by law, for me to carry a weapon for self-defence as long as I don't use it unprovoked. These thoughts stopped pretty quickly when my friend told me that no, it's not legal.
By the second half of the game, Asya started wanting to send a message to the world for it all to hear. Those are also similar thoughts to me currently.
